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Sent to a friend IM 25 YEARS OLD AND IM LIVING THE MOST STRESSFUL SITUATION THAT I HAVE EVER ENCOUNTERED. I SEPARATED FROM MY HUSBAND EXACTLY ONE YEAR AGO BECAUSE HE CAUGHT ME PARTYING WITH A MALE COWORKER. WHEN HE CONFRONTED ME I EXPLAINED TO HIM THAT OUR SIX YEAR RELATIONSHIP GOT COLD AND THAT HE WAS NOT MEETING MY EXPECTATIONS. SO WE BOTH DECIDED TO SEPARATE AND GIVE EACH OTHER TIME TO THINK ABOUT OUR RELATIONSHIP AND OUR DAUGHTER.INSTEAD OF GIVING ME TIME TO THINK AND REALIZE HOW MUCH MY LIFE WOULD CHANGE I STARTED DATING THIS GUY AT WORK THAT WOULD NOT STOP ASKING ME OUT. AFTER A FEW WEEKS OF DATING I FOUND OUT THAT HE WAS LIVING WITH HIS TWO SONS AND GIRLFRIEND OF 14 YEARS. I OF COURSE DID NOT ACEPTED THE SITUATION AND TRIED TO PUT AN END TO IT. HE REFUSED TO LET ME GO HE CLAIMED TO BE IN LOVE AND LEFT HIS GIRLFRIEND AND KIDS. AFTER HE STARTED TO GET SERIOUS AND WANTED TO MOVE IN WITH ME. I FEEL HE STRESS THE POINT OUT SO MUCH THAT I FALL FOR HIS GAME. MY EX NEVER NEW ABOUT THIS AND ALL THE TIME HE WAS THINKING THAT I WAS STILL THINKING THINGS OUT. I WAS NOT, I WAS TOO BUSY WITH THIS NEW RELATIONSHIP THAT GREW OUT OF PROPORTION BECAUSE I FEEL I WAS NEVER ABLE TO TELL HIM WHAT I WANTED I WAS SO AFRAID TO HURT HIM SPECIALLY BECAUSE HE LEFT HIS KIDS. IN THE FIRST PLACE I DIDNT WANTED HIM TO DO IT I WANTED TO END OUR RELATIONSHIP, BUT I GUESS HE GOT THE WRONG MESSAGE.
THEN AFTER A YEAR I REALIZE THAT THIS IS NOT THE PERSON I NEED IN MY LIFE. I HAD MORE PROBLEMS THAN BEFORE AND WE ARGUED ALL THE TIME BECAUSE OF HIS EX AND HIS KIDS. I THEN DECIDED TO MOVE OUT AND QUIT MY JOB. I MOVED IN WITH MY PARENTS 300 MILES AWAY WITH THE HOPE THAT HE WOULD STAY AND FORGET ABOUT ME. AGAIN HE GOT THE WRONG MESSAGE WHEN I TOLD HIM THAT WE COULD NOT CONTINUE TOGETHER BECAUSE I WAS MOVING TO LAS VEGAS. HE THEN QUIT HIS JOB AND NOW HE IS THINKING ABOUT COMING TO LIVE HERE WITH ME AND I HAVE TRIED TO STOP HIM AND HE HAS TRIED TO KILL HIMSELF OR AT LEAST HE PRETENDED TO DO IT. I FEEL HE IS MANIPULATING ME AND NOW I DONT KNOW HOW TO STOP HIM FROM CHASING ME AROUND.
MY EX HUSBAND HAS CALLL ME AND ASKED ME TO GO BACK WITH HIM, BUT I THINK THAT I REALLY NEED TIME TO THINK. I CARE ABOUT MY EX BUT I DONT LOVE HIM. AND I DO HAVE FEELINGS FOR MY PSYCHO BOYFRIEND, HOWEVER IM AFRAID OF HIM AND I CANT TRUST HIM. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO RIGHT NOW IM VERY STRESSED AND CONFUSED.....
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- HOW CAN YOU EVER LOVE SOMEONE THAT YOU DON'T TRUST. YOUR BOYFRIEND DID NOT GET THE WRONG MESSAGE, HE GOT THE MESSAGE THAT YOU GAVE HIM. YOUR BOYFRIEND IS INDEED A MANIPULATOR, BUT YOU SEEM TO CONSTANTLY GIVE HIM POWER OVER YOUR LIFE AND DECISIONS. THERE COMES A POINT IN TIME WHEN YOU HAVE TO SAY NO AND MEAN IT.
THIS MAY BE JUST MY OPINION BUT YOUR BOYFRIEND IS NOT SOMEONE THAT YOU CAN BE FRIENDS WITH AFTER YOUR RELATIONSHIP IS OVER. SOME PEOPLE JUST DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO!!! OVER TIME THESE RELATIONSHIPS BECOME TOXIC AND ANY GOOD THAT WAS IN THE RELATIONSHIP IS GONE. THIS INDEED SEEMS TO BE THE CASE WITH YOUR BOYFRIEND. YOU HAVE HAD A YEAR TO THINK, NOW YOU NEED TO ACT. IF YOU DON'T LOVE YOUR HUSBAND TELL HIM AND STOP JUST THINKING. WHAT DO YOU THINK OTHER PEOPLE ARE SUPPOSED TO DO WITH THEIR LIVES WHILE YOU ARE THINKING? IT IS A WONDER THAT YOUR HUSBAND HASN'T GOTTEN A GIRLFRIEND AND MOVED ON WITH HIS LIFE WHILE YOU WERE THINKING.
THE BOTTOM LINE IS STAY AWAY FROM THE BOYFREIND AND DO NOT LET HIM NEAR YOUR DAUGHTER. HE LEFT HIS KIDS SO DO YOU REALLY THINK THAT HE CARES ABOUT YOURS? REMEMBER YOU CAN'T LOVE SOMEONE THAT YOU ARE AFRAID OF OR CAN'T TRUST.
BE BLESSED AND NOT STRESSED. BE CONVINCED AND NOT CONFUSED. - DON'T LET YOUR B/F MANIPULATE YOU,I WAS IN A SIMILAR SITUATION, I DIDN'T WANT TO HURT HIM, I HAD FELINGS FOR HIM TOO.I STILL DO TOO AN EXTENT, BUT KNEW IT WOULD NEVER WORK BETWEEN US.HE THREATNED TO KILL HIMSELF TOO, AND EVEN WENT AS FAR AS CALLING ME ON MY MOBILE FROM THE SIDE OF A RAILWAY TRACK AND TOLD ME HE WAS GOING TO JUMP INFRONT OF A TRAIN AND JUST AT THAT MOMENT I HEARD A TRAIN SCREAMING PAST HE DROPPED HIS PHONE AND ALL I HEARD WAS BACKGROUND NOISE AND TRAINS IN THE DISTANCE.I WAS SHOUTING DOWN THE PHONE FOR ABOUT 15 MINS AND WAS IN SUCH A STATE,THEN HE PICKED THE PHONE UP AND SAID SORRY HE WAS IN THE DARK AND HAD DROPPED THE PHONE AND COULDN'T FIND IT.I KNEW IT WAS DELIBERATE,IT MADE ME REALIZE EVEN MORE THAT
I COULDN'T BE WITH HIM,I COULDN'T PUT UP WITH THE THREATS AND MANIPULATION.I TOLD HIM IT WAS OVER AND NEVER CONTACTED HIM AGAIN.HE SENT ME TEXT MESSAGES FOR MONTHS AND CALLED MY PHONE BUT I KNEW I COULDN'T ANSWER THEM OR HE MIGHT BE GIVEN SOME KIND OF FALSE HOPE.THE LAST TEXT I RECEIVED SAID "GOODBYE TOO YOU AND EVERYONE AND THANKS!"I HAVN'T HEARD FROM HIM SINCE , I DO HOPE HE IS OK,BUT I COULDN'T BE EMOTIONALLY BLACKMAILED ANY LONGER,MY NERVES WERE SHATTERED.
I THINK YOUR VERY WISE TO TAKE SOME TIME OUT FOR YOURSELF.IT MAY NOT BE FOR YOU BUT I TOOK UP MEDITATION,MADE PEACE WITH MYSELF,USED THE TIME TO LEARN ABOUT MYSELF. AND REALLY THOUGHT ABOUT WHAT MY NEEDS AND HOPES WERE FOR A BETTER FUTURE. GIVE YOURSELF TIME,YOU WILL FIND YOUR OWN ANSWERS. I THINK YOU KNOW ALREADY THAT THE BEST THING TOO DO IS TO WALK AWAY FROM THE B/F,YOU ARE NOT RESPONSIBLE FOR HIM IN ANY WAY WE ARE EACH RESPONSIBLE FOR OURSELVES,SO MAKE THE RIGHT CHOICES FOR YOU.IT'S PAINFULL, I KNOW ONLY TOO WELL, BUT IT WILL PASS,IF YOU STAY WITH HIM THE PAIN WILL NEVER GO AWAY. GOOD LUCK AND BEST WISHES TOO YOU.