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Sent to a friend[3473] I still feel cheated...
My real mother left me with her aunt and uncle to raise when I was a newborn, and then she split. Laws being what they were in the 70\'s, they were allowed to adopt me without the authorities ever looking into them. I didn\'t even find out that I was adopted until I was 19.Both of my adoptive parents were real basket cases. My adoptive dad hardly ever worked, so we barely even had food to eat...and he didn\'t care. As long as he could scrape up enough to pay the cable bill, he was happy. To Hell if I had school clothes. Plus he was probably the most physicaly abusive human being I have ever known....I am actually shocked that he never killed me. As an adult I have permanent double vision, my doctor says it comes from an old fracture of my eye orbit. That must have been the time when I was 10 and he repeatedly slammed my head with a truck door.
My adoptive mom wasn\'t any better. I cannot ever remember her kissing or hugging me, let alone reading me a bed time story. While she didn\'t hit me as much as the old man, her utter neglect seems worse in a lot of ways to me now. And forget her ever trying to protect me, she\'d just tell me \"Stop pissing him off, and maybe he won\'t hit you as much.\"
Both of them are dead now. And I don\'t miss them. If I ran into my \'real\' mother, I think I would try to strangle her. She knew exactly what both of them were like when she left me with them.
What is making this worse for me is finding out that the doctor who delivered me knew I was unwanted and offered to adopt me. I would have had a beautiful home with brothers and sisters and parents who ACTUALLY wanted me.
Everyday now I think of what might have been, and all I feel is rage.
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