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Sent to a friend ok im kinda a fucked up person. I get a serious kick out of reading all this weird and wrong stuff. i dont sleep normally and i hate where im living. Sometimes idk whats wrong with me. I get random fucked up ideas in my head all the time and all i want right now is a cigarette. The bad thing is im 17 and come from a dsyfunctional home. any suggestions for me?Rating:0.00
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- Everything you said is exactly like what I have been though, except the cigarette bit. Your not fucked up you see things different because of your family. Remember their the ones that are wrong not you, distants yourself from how you see them and yourself. Everyone has strange ideas in their head from time to time its normal. You need direction in your life, something positive maybe that will help the sleeping problem.
- if you keep thinking you are fucked up you will be thnk postive
- You need lexapro ask your doctor for some
- I'm in the same position as you. The only difference is I won't be seventeen for another 74 days...or at least thats how long it is right about now. I know the need to smoke. I actually just smoked a minute ago. Two cigarettes. Definately not something I'm proud of. And in between cigs, I vented to an invisible being. I had to vent.
I'm lost, confused, and I don't know What exactly I'm doing in my life. Yet, here I stand. I'm not giving up. Family life for me is hard and complicated. My grandfather nearly on his death bed and my grandmother should-surely-follow shortly. I don't know what's worse; watching my grandfather die or watching his love go down with him. It's hard. My grandfather loves me deeply, but we've become distant as I've hit a rebellious stage in my life. Only a year or so ago, actually. I finally started standing for myself. Doing what I want for the first time... I felt wretched. Wretched and wonderful all at once. A taste of freedom... But it wasn't enough. My family faught hard to reel me in, but, as they say, the more you pull, the farther away you push. That is exactly what my family has done. I've become lazy. I don't believe in Higher Powers as strongly as I once did. All because I tasted freedom. I take far too many things for granted, and always face the consequence in the end.
Well... I don't wanna keep on. Email me if you want to hear more or talk about anything at all.
Sincerely,
The one that's in your reflection,
Rhiannon.