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Sent to a friend[7856] affair with brother inlaw
I grew up in a very closed religious home. My 3 syblings and I were home schooled and had very little access to the outside world. When I was 15 I fell madly in love with a 22 year old. Of course you don\'t know what love is at that age. He was the first man I was attracted to that I had an opportunity to have a relationship with. We were married 2 years later and I got pregnant right away. I was a virgin on our wedding night. I was quite dissapointed in sex. I was emotionaly attached but was not sexually attracted. I had such a hard time comunicating and expressing myself throughout our marriage about anything. I felt resentful to him all the time but would just try to dissmiss it. I would ditract myself with prodjects. Finally one night after almost 11 years I was really drunk at my sister inlaws 21st birthday party and my brother inlaw took me to the mini van to lay down. I was so drunk I don\'t remember this any of this except a 5 second flash back of him feeling me up. It was so intense and errotic like nothing I\'d ever experienced. I tried so hard to forget it the next day but I couldn\'t. It haunted me for a week. I finally started to talk about my marriage and sex with my sister and sister inlaw. When I told the some of the details of what it was like they both said they would feel the same if they were me. I tried to talk to my husband about making some changes in our life and about seeing a sex therapyst. These conversations went no where. I felt like this undiscovered part of myself had been awakened and I was loosing my mind. I finally called my brother-inlaw and told him I remembered part of that night and couldn\'t stop thinking about it. When we saw eachother next the energy was so intense beween us. We ended up having a chance to be all alone which was so bazar and neither of us had arranged it. We had sex and it was so amazing. I suddenly knew why people love sex. I turned into a complete nympho. I felt like I could do him 5 times a day. Whenever we saw eachother after that we felt completely torchered. Hardly three weeks had gone by and we were having a party at his house. Everyone was upstairs for a minute so we went behiend the dividing wall in the basement and made out for a few brief seconds and walked out. He grabed me out in the open since no one had come down yet and started passionatly kissing my mouth. My leg was wrapped up around him and we were completely lossed in this embrase and didn\'t hear anyone come down the stairs. We opened our eyes to see his wife who is my best friend standing there watching us in disbelief.My husband who is very loving and kind who I\'ve never seen angry comforted his brother and told him he still loved him. My sister inlaw hit her husband and told him it was over. She told me I was dead to her. In the car my husband told me that his brother told him everything and now it was my turn to tell my side. I asked, \"what did he tell you?\" he said, \"that doesn\'t matter but I was shocked at all the things he said you all had done.\" He said, \"we can make it through this if your honest, you have to tell me everything, start from the begining.\"
I had never been in any situation like this before in my life. I had never been in a fight, never broke- up with someone, never told a lie, really never got in trobble. I had been the good girl and did the right thing my whole life. So I told him everything. Then he called and told his parents and my sister-inlaw. Now they are getting a divorce. There is such a big part of me that wants one too. I have wanted to break free for so long and have felt so smothered. The only reason that I am waiting is that he is willing to go to counseling and really wants to do anything he has to to make it work. My grief is so so heavy about my brother and sister inlaw. I miss them desperatly. They had alot of issues to begin with and it\'s doubtful their marriage would have lasted but I didn\'t want the blood be on my hands. I have shamed my husband and all his family. None of them are speaking to me except one sister-inlaw. I have still lived in a closed world since I\'ve been married. My husbands family had become my second cave and I had little to no friendships out side of them. Now I have completely cut myself off. I am so overwhelmed with grief shame embarassement and confussion. Amazingly my husband is my greatest source of comfort, he tells me it\'s going to be ok all the time. I don\'t want to hurt him anymore and I just want to figure myself out I feel so utterly lossed right now.
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Comments
- god is a forgiving god , he loves you . time will heal.just believe
- you are a cunt. kill yourself.
- u r a fucking bitch, and u said u r a religious person? go to hell.
- If he stays with you . Over the years he will regret it. You only thought of yourself and no one else when you decided to go down this road . Be prepared for some serious heart ache over the years if he stays. I hope it was worth it . You now know it wasn't . And you deserve what's coming.
Ps my wife did the same thing to me. And no it does not get ant easier over time . I have absolutly no relationship with my brother . - I don't know why but a lot of people (even some who I'm not really close to) like to tell me their secrets. It seems that most came from very religous families. I think due to your religous life, you were not prone to many illecit content, thus when you came into that situation, it was new to you, and you didn't know how to handle it.
Hang in there, and know that you are not the only one in the world. - people who called her horrible shit can go to hell themselves , your all scum , hunnii ppl make mistakes but if i were u if i wanted 2 leave then id leave ull hurt him more by stayin and let him think everythin is okay then just turn his world ova agen after another 11 yrs, leave darlin and dnt look bk, im sure hes great but if ur not happy thn how will u expect him to b knowin his wife doesnt want him cause he will pick it up eventually, u only get one life i think (im not sure about religious things yet) use it well or ull regret it
- last comment is right, hubby might change but things will never be right. I love my wife, but there's always more than one person for everyone if it all goes tits up.