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Sent to a friend[792] Love From Male To Male 1st Cousin
I would like to confess that I am in love with my male cousin. I am also a male. I really don't know what lead to it. It was like I woke up one morning and I knew I wanted him. It took over 9 months before I finally got it out of me. After I heard the song by The All-American Rejects - Dirty Little Secret I had to tell him. I didn't know what he would say - I really thought he would get mad and tell on me. I had him guess what it was and just didn't tell him if he was right. The 1st thing out of his mouth was that I wanted him. I immediately denied it - even though he was right! I couldn't believe that he got it right off the back. I kept thinking about telling him and after another week I finally broke out telling him when he guessed the same thing again. He didn't really care. He said he thought about me the same way. It wasn't until about 2 weeks later that we tried oral sex. He didn't want to do it to me but was fine with me doing it to him. We both love it when I message his hair and kiss and lick and move my hands over his body. We have been doing this since end of January 2006 for about 6 months. It turned out that he loves me and I love him. We both want to be with each other but can't right now. Truth! We have been doing it behind his parents and our families backs. They have no idea. Only his mentally retarded dad thinks something is happening. Truth! He mollested 2 of his boys in early marriages and was convicted of it. He keeps trying to keep us apart. We aren't even spoust to sit next to each other. Thats bullshit - he doesn't even have proof of us doing anything. It should be up to him if I am around him. He loves me and I sure in the hell loves him. Truth! I am away from him right now - about 15 miles and my chest hurts like hell. I even get headaches when he is not around. I can't stop the pain I feel when he is not around. Luckily I see him and kiss him every to every other day. No other stuff right now. We love each other and can't stand living a lie. We want so bad to tell our families the truth but we know for a fact that we would be shunned and would never see each other atleast until he becomes of age. It's been 6 months of this stuff - seems like forever and it is still a while for he can legally be around me and show is love in private - atleast without being ridiculled. I wish people wouldn't make fun of gays? All it is - is a person loving another person of the same sex. It doesn't mean they are out to have sex with every guy - like most straight guys think. They do have something they do look for. Just not any guy. I found mine and I don't care if he is my 1st cousin or what we do in the name of love.Rating:5.00
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- THERE YOU GO RIGHT THERE--- YOU SAY YOU DON'T CARE WHAT PEOPLE THINK, YET YOU DANG NEAR WRITE A BOOK TO EXPLAIN THE ILLICIT AFFAIR. IS IT A FREAKING EPIDEMIC, ALL OF THESE INCESTUOUS RELATIONSHIPS? THE FATHER RECOGNIZES SOMETHING BETWEEN YOU TWO, AND I WOULD NOT BE SO QUICK TO DISCREDIT OTHER FAMILY MEMBERS. THEY ARE PROBABLY JUST AS SPEECHLESS AS I AM. BUT THEN YOU SAY YOU DON'T CARE. A PERSON THAT DOESN'T CARE IS A DANGEROUS PERSON, NOT ONLY TO HIMSELF, BUT TO OTHERS. A PERSON WHO DOESN'T CARE DON'T HAVE NOTHING TO LOSE. THIS IS NOT LOVE IT IS STRAIGHT UP LUST OF THE MOST DISPICABLE NATURE. BUT THEN YOU SAY YOU DON'T CARE.
- Lord have mercy....let me get this straight....
Not only are you sexually involved with your first cousin, but he is underage as well?!? I mean really. There is no way to justify the mutitde of wrongs here. Being gay isnt even the problem...but an underage first cousin? BOY YOU NEED TO SIT DOWN SOMEWHERE!
All I can say is that you need to pray, reflect and pray some more cause God is the only one who can help you now. - You didn't mention the ages of the two of you. The age is my primary concern. Was your cousin sexually abused as well? Were you? It's very interesting that he let you perform oral or him, but he wouldn't reciprocate. He could very well have sexual orientation issues, so be cautious of that.
There are alot of variables that cause concern above the homosexuality.
The issue of your being gay probably means less to your family then you being with a family member. You must realize that see this as a perversion and a justification of any prejudice against homosexuals.
Please, leave your cousin alone and find someone else to be with. If it is love, it will still be there when you're both "legal."
But i'm pretty much still speechless on this one.
- aint this about some shit. why you got to confess if you don't care? You care but you scared what other's will think of you!..boy please!
Okay, help me to understand...When you say he is not yet of age, do you mean he is not quite the LEGAL age (18) before he's able to make his own decisions and move out, or do you mean he is a bonafide MINOR? What is the age differene between you? From the sounds of your letter, you are bordering on "child molestation," unless YOU are a minor, too.
If his father is picking up on it, it's because he is of the same mindset and his "radar" is picking up on that little 'signal' that people who share like beliefs seem to send out. If he was convicted and served time for child molestation, how is he able to be around minors, now?
Nonetheless, there would be no overall happiness for the two of you in the long run. Your families will be devastated and in the event that you two get past this phase in your lives and move on, the scars and questions will remain.
I say that you should both seek counseling and attempt to defeat this behavior as much as you can. It isn't worth it in the end and keeping him in your life as a "cousin" is a lot more beneficial than having him in your bed as a lover.
~SL~