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Sent to a friend[8291] I cheated on my boyfriend with his best friend.
I had to write this down here as I have sworn I will never tell a soul, but I can't get it out of my head.My BF and I have been together 5yrs, we live together and although I am in love with him and try to initiate sex often, we haven't had sex for about 8 months. I have suspected he may of been cheating on me because he has before and have thought a lot about breaking up. But, he has just gone away for 6 months with work. I can't talk to him whilst he is away and I always promised I wouldn't break up with him by letter. So I am "with" him for the next 6 months at least.
Last night, I went over to his best friends house to catch up. His best friend is a lot older than either of us and he has always flirted with me despite having a GF.
After a few drinks, I ended up telling his best friend about how long it had been since we had sex and how lonely and unattractive I felt. He kissed me and told me I was beautiful, that he thought my BF was mad to not want me.
We got very drunk and ended up having sex.
In the morning, when we were sober, we did it again and it was mind blowingly good, the best sex I have ever had. But he said it will never happen again and that we must never ever tell anyone.
I am so confused as I now have all these feelings for this man but I know it can never go anywhere. I cannot imagine my BF will ever make me as happy as he has but since he says this will go nowhere, should I try and work things out with him?
I don't know what to do.
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- Im thinking of you, take each day as it comes. Do what you should do!, what you feel you should, its hard to be truthful to yourself if you have failed at being truthful to another. But stay focused, :-) God bless! xxx
- im in the same ship, just different part of the ship lol
- my name is david work things through with the grace of god everything will be fine
- iv done the same thing to my boyfriends but a lil different but quite close, but if u do wat i do u might get caught, i havent .. yet but me n his friend r still talkin bout it n i might fool around agen wiv him tonight.
- Do you really think that while your BF is away for 6 months that he is being faithful to you, especially since he has cheated in the past? It is total b.s. to make you promise not to break up by mail and be "with him" for 6 months in his absence. Write his sorry ass a letter and tell him that you have needs and are moving on. If it is meant to be when he returns then he can go thru the motions of proving it to you all over again. If the friend doesn't want a relationship, then find another man to fulfill your needs. And spare the 'but I love my BF nonsense" to yourself. Have some self confidence and self esteem and then have some fun - you deserve it!